A Dangerous but Beautiful Event  

bustinout20202 63F  
55 posts
10/25/2020 2:18 pm
A Dangerous but Beautiful Event


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bustinout20202 63F  
64 posts
10/25/2020 2:34 pm

We used to get those almost every winter as a child. The East wind whipping in from the gorge would paint everything in a thick coating of ice. A Silver Thaw it was called. I remember one particular winter when we were without power for 2 weeks waiting for the utility team to finally discover and remove a fallen branch on our backyard cable. It took those two weeks for the crews to go from repairing blown transformers to trace the outage to that little branch on our little cable.
A Silver Thaw was always a dangerous but beautiful event…

Even while I was playing “Sherlock on Steroids”, he and I started talking more. Within the first two weeks, in the aftermath of D-Day, we talked more about sex than we did in our entire marriage! I opened up about my issues and hang-ups, which were plenty but sounded so ridiculously petty in the light of day: performance anxieties, feeling unsexy most days, religious constraints ["Don't like sex? Just invite Jesus into your bedroom!”], and how sex had hurt at times. He opened up about his needs as well. The fact that sex was more about the intimacy and touch than just fucking to him. That he enjoyed seeing a woman getting off more than his own needs. This was news to me!
I asked him tons of questions about his experiences:
What was it like? Was it awkward? What did he do with them? How many times with each one?
At first his answers were very measured. I think he thought I might use them against him in another argument down the road…or maybe in a court of law…or maybe he didn’t want to hurt me!? But, no, I was just really curious. And since it had happened several years ago, I felt it was safe to bring up and look at in all its glory now.
Ha ha! Oh how my incredibly Puritan ways were beginning to fly out the window! I told him that I was open to watching porn, something I never did before!! It used to bother me big time when I would catch him watching it. During my Jesus days I was really good at shaming him. He said, “Do you know what I watched on porn?” [Oh Geez, did I really want to know?] He typed in a name and some old footage came up. “She remind you of anyone?” he asked. OMG! Even I could see the resemblance. The porn star looked exactly like me! She was my X rated doppelganger! Well, she looked like me back in the day with 80s hair anyway. And well, boobs, she had boobs twice the size of mine…okay, that’s fucking BIG! All he wanted all those years was for his wife who once looked like a porn star to act like a porn star!
Then something happened…something miraculous happened!
Like sunlight on the ice laden branches, I started to warm up. The thought that other women found him desirable really started to turn me on! It made me see him from a completely different perspective. Could it be that the ice was melting off the Ice Queen!?
It didn’t take long before I came onto him! I teased and taunted him. I relished his kisses in a whole new way. He willingly responded and shared what his forays into fuckland had taught him! We were re-discovering each other like never before. We could laugh in the bedroom again. The biggest change for me was to let go of the performance aspect and just let my body enjoy the experience. I made him the promise that from now on, I would always be available to him. He took me up on that offer…we played every night for weeks, [actually the mornings proved to be a better time] sometimes twice a day. Languid lounging times, quickies in the computer room; new discoveries, new toys, new fun. It was the beginning of a sexual awakening for me.
But…was it enough? for him? for me? for us?


PAWAPh 44M
13831 posts
10/25/2020 5:17 pm

Hey, Bustin.

*Really Interesting Story*

Cool Ice Photo!!

Jack


bustinout20202 replies on 10/25/2020 5:28 pm:
Thank you Jack! Always appreciate a hand wave,too!

CleavageFan4U 63M  
63539 posts
10/25/2020 6:11 pm

Some great analogies here lady. (And YES, you DO look like a porn star - mostly the glorious hair - though I can't cite any names.)

I can't help but think he wanted you to find the stash of sex toys, and it would seem that it worked for him (you/both of you) in the short term. But yet here you are posting on a blog entitled "My Second Act" though as I write this it occurs to me that is NOT the same as one titled "Starting Over". Guess I'm learning to be patient (haaa) and see how this all plays/played out.

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bustinout20202 replies on 10/25/2020 10:16 pm:
You made some very astute observations there...stay tuned!!

easy_going2014 53M
14305 posts
10/25/2020 10:14 pm

hmm

ok, I'm a believer

everything has worked out in the end

that wasn't so bad

but, something tells me, there may be more to come

I'm sleeping with the night lite on, and, one eye open

just in case

thanks for sharing

hmm

be safe

Ambrosia - "How Much I Feel"

I don't know how this whole business started
Of you thinkin' that I have been untrue
But if you think that we'd be better parted
It's gonna hurt me, but I'll break away from you
Well, just give me the sign and I will be gone, yeah
feel for you, baby
(How much I need) well I need your touch
(How much I live) I live for your loving
That's how much (that's how much)
That's how much, that's how much
I sleep alone, and late at night I'm dreamin'
Of the togetherness that seems to be leaving me
I'd give it all and then I'd give some more
If you would only love me like you had before
Well, take hold of my hand and all will be forgiven, yeah

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bustinout20202 replies on 10/26/2020 10:19 am:
Good idea to sleep with the light on...bwahahaha!
thanks for the song! I woke up to this and started singing it right out loud this morning! Who knew those lyrics would fit so well...stay tuned!

justaguyinalaska 54M  
772 posts
10/26/2020 1:33 am

Winter's splendid beauties are occasionally offset with terrors it can wreak upon our comfort and safety. Happily most of its dangers are *objective*. Positivity, LED headlamps and a good wood stove will sustain you through most of them.

The fantastic takeaway from today's chapter was the invaluable power of communication to disrupt and redirect a relationship that has plateaued and lost its erotic *charge*. It is unfortunate that your revelations came out of anger and confrontation, but I sense that through this crisis you achieved an important release of unacknowledged inhibitions and desires.


bustinout20202 replies on 10/26/2020 10:23 am:
So Alaska Man, its been a year of discoveries and revelations...and baby, its cold outside! stay tuned!

REDFEZZZ 55M  
16 posts
10/29/2020 8:15 pm

Cherry trapped in ice.
Brunette wasted on the branch.
Time for Silver thaw...


bustinout20202 replies on 10/30/2020 7:10 am:
for someone who hates haikus...this sums it up perfectly!! I may steal this...

REDFEZZZ 55M  
16 posts
10/31/2020 8:33 am

Feel free to use,
but be prepared to share.....


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